My Newfound Hobby.

I have a new hobby. I'm going to take pics of old couples. Don't ask me why. I'm not really sure myself. I dunno. I used to like watching old couples who are still together. Now, it kinda looks painful... and it scares me. Maybe because I'm afraid I might not be able to attain what they have achieved. I am, once again, afraid of marriages. I have reverted back to my old self... Philophobic. So why am I taking pics of something that scares me? Something that pains me? Maybe because for me, although reality has opened my eyes to its painful truths... I still want to believe that sometimes, life can still bring about miracles.

This is my first pic:

I know it doesn't have much of an artistic outcome but this was my first try, ok? So bear with me :) I didn't have the guts to ask the couple if I could take their picture. Maybe in my next shots, I could take it in front and maybe later, gather enough balls to ask the couple to smile for the camera... but i think candid would have a better outcome. I took this picture earlier at Rustan's Banawa. The old man was holding on to his dear wife for support and the poor man had a bad case of kyphosis he was almost half the height of his wife... but they looked so sweet still :)

The Genius speaks.

“Have you ever been in love? Horrible isn't it? It makes you so vulnerable. It opens your chest and it opens up your heart and it means that someone can get inside you and mess you up. You build up all these defenses, you build up a whole suit of armor, so that nothing can hurt you, then one stupid person, no different from any other stupid person, wanders into your stupid life...You give them a piece of you. They didn't ask for it. They did something dumb one day, like kiss you or smile at you, and then your life isn't your own anymore. Love takes hostages. It gets inside you. It eats you out and leaves you crying in the darkness, so simple a phrase like 'maybe we should be just friends' turns into a glass splinter working its way into your heart. It hurts. Not just in the imagination. Not just in the mind. It's a soul-hurt, a real gets-inside-you-and-rips-you-apart pain. I hate love.” - Neil Gaiman

Couldn't have said it better myself.

Not for the weak at mind.

I've read this article a long time ago but only remembered about it today when Gabe and I were talking about "masi".

Don't tell me I didn't f***ing warn ya!
The most versatile word in English.

Wishes and Friendships

Life has a funny way of picking up on you when you think everything's okay and everything's going right. Life has a funny way of helping you out when you think everything's gone wrong and everything blows up in your face. - Ironic, Alanis Morrisette

Wish… It might Just Come True.

Just last week I posted here that I wish Chepol was here so I could hang out with someone & just talk about anything. Someone up there must have been paying attention to my wishful thinking & sensing my loneliness. Because indeed, Chepol came, read my blog & told me he arrived in Cebu last Friday! Awesome!

So last Sunday I had coffee then dinner with Jason, Hilque, and Chepol who, by the way, is getting married soon! (La and Tit, naunahan pa ta sang toddler ta.) I’m so happy for you sweety! I hope this time it's forever!

An Unusual Friendship

Last Sunday, I had a missed call from someone who wasn't registered in my phonebook.

(I'm writing this on my IIs so I'm just copying and pasting our conversation. But I'm going to change the names(*) to protect their privacy.)

Me: Who's this? You called?

+63918xxxxxxx: Did you know Joe*?

Me: I know at least 3 Joes. Which Joe are we talking about?

+63918xxxxxxx: Joe from Cagayan.

Me: Yes, I know a Joe from cagayan. Who's this? Why do you ask? I hope everything's alright?

At this point I was already wondering why someone I don't know would ask me about someone I know. The things that crossed my mind were:
A. This is a gf who wants to check up on her bf and randomly texted girl's names on his phone.
B. Something bad had happened to Joe and the police or the hospital were looking for people who could help.
C. Joe did something bad and the police wanted him...
Hahaha! Yeah, twisted, huh? ;-) Anyway, back to the conversation.

+63918xxxxxxx: What is your relationship with him? Sori 2 ask u this.

Me: Hahaha! Why do I have a feeling you're Joe's special girl? ;) I have no romantic/sexual associations with Joe if that's what you're concerned about. :) We just had the chance to have each other's acquaintance.

+63918xxxxxxx: We swap fon b4 then wen he back my fon he dnt knw how 2 delete the number that he save 2 my fonbok. Thats why ur name and number stil n my fon.

Me: Oh, I see. :)

Two days after, I woke up to this message:

+63918xxxxxxx: Gud am sori about wat I ask u the other day! Anyway, im not a special girl of Joe! Break nami duha.

Hmmm... I thought he was a guy... Anyway, so here's another girl who was in the same boat as I was.. might as well flock with my fellow FEA(the)RLESS bird. So I carried on the conversation.

Me: Sorry to hear about ur break-up.. My bf and I recently parted ways too.. it's not easy but I’m coping.. Dnt worry. Plenty more of fishes in the sea..:)

+63918xxxxxxx: Sori 2 hear urs also! Yeah your right! Plenty of fish n the sea :-) but its difficult 2 find a good one:-) anyway! I can move on so easy and quickly! Besides I broke up Joe last wek only! And now im hapi without him!

Me: We have something in common. Mine happened a week ago too. Haha!

+63918xxxxxxx: Hahaha! Really? Im hoping were not same situation why I broke-up my bf?

Me: I don't know, in my case, we weren't happy anymore..

+63918xxxxxxx: I see! In my case, we both have problems! By the way, may I knw your name? Im Jean* 29yrs old. And you?

+63918xxxxxxx: Your name sharon? Am I right?

Me: Sharon, 28. nice to meet you Jean. :-)

+63918xxxxxxx: Nice to met u too! I need 2 get some sleep na. Hope we can met personally.

Me: Yes, it would be nice if we cud meet in person :) cge, get sum sleep na ü

+63918xxxxxxx: Are you working? What is your day off? So that we can meet in person!

Urm.. Ayaw pa yata matulog..

Me: I work 8am-5pm. We dont hav work 2day cuz it's a holiday. My rest days r satrdays n sundays. hw bwt u? Wen wud b d best tym we meet?u work in a call cntr?

Hey, I know what you're thinking. I just asked if she worked in a call center because she said she needed to get some sleep at 8AM. Ok?

+63918xxxxxxx: B4 I work call center bcoz of my husband but I just work there 3 weks. I have a corporation business bikini bar along mango Ave. name Orion*.

+63918xxxxxxx: Thats why we hve both prblem of Joe! Bcoz I hve husband and Joe hve wife and 2 kids.

Your lesson for the day: What's grammar to moolah, huh?
Yeah, I changed the club's name too.. But I left out a clue. Ü

Me: I haven't been 2 orion but it sounds ntresting ü, Is ur husband a foreigner? I knw Joe has 2 kids,but I ddnt knw he has a wife..

+63918xxxxxxx: Can I meet you this sunday before I open my club?

+63918xxxxxxx: Yeah! I married in england 2002 but I alrdy file a devorce to him last january.

Me: Sure! Sunday sounds good ü wer n wat tym?

+63918xxxxxxx: If you like 2 come in inside the club with your frends why not? I give u all free drinks.

Me: Wow! That's very generous of you. Ü how long have u had this biznes?

+63918xxxxxxx: I started managed business when im 20yrs old and I own a resto bar and restaurant across foodarama but I close it bcoz no good location! We open club orion august 23, 2006

Me: Uv been in biznes for a good deal of time Ü that's really good. Cge let's meet sunday. Meanwyl, get sum sleep na. U must b tired. :)

Anyone wants to go with me on Sunday? ;-)